WOW.... God is good!

So I have been fasting now for 3 days... I am trying to go about this in a healthy mannor. I am just eating lunch and drinking healthy liquids. No snacks, no dinner, no late night fast food... geez it's hard.
The first night, my roommate and I went to Wal-Mart. The second night, my Uncle wanted me to go to dinner with them after church. Tonight, I had to sit through a meal at church and then I took Adam to go get some food and an ankle brace, since his truck is broken.

God is showing me how faithful I need to be to be His follower. This time in my spiritual life is probably the BEST!

So, after I wrote that blog on Monday I broke completely down and called a friend who prayed for me. When I came back inside my roommate and I talked about our friendship and how much it means to both of us. We are doing much better now... as friends.

On Monday when I was stuggling I told Adam that I felt like I needed to fast until God opened a door and so here I am on day 3! Let me just tell you how amazing God is. On Wednesday I went to church to help Brian do some labeling. Well, as I was there Janci and Mrs. Becci told me that there was a Woman's lunch/Bible study that I could sit in on if I wanted while I labeled. I did so.... You will not believe this, but the Study is called...... "Discerning the Voice of God" HOW AMAZING IS THAT! Man God is SO good! I am learning so much through this study and I have only done 2 days. So yeah God is basically ROCKING my world at this moment and I still have no clue about what He wants me to do or go after graduation.... I do know that I desire to see the end result of God's plan instantly and I need to wait patiently. GEEZ! To quote one of my favorite movies "Inconseivable!"


Well I leave you with this.... God is always SPEAKING and MOVING - even in the silent times!



ALSO, "If you told God on your knees that you had reached an impasse and ... were handing it over to him, then leave it with him. Do not go to the first Christian you meet and say, 'You know I have an awful problem; I don't know what to do.' Don't discuss it. Leave it with God and go on the watch-tower." ~ D. Martyn Lloyd-Jones

Life so far

So life has been hectic since coming back to NGU. The last month probably has been the most spiritually stressing. Here is a list of why:

1. My roommate and I who were once best friends rarely speak.
2. I have struggled with having a consistant quiet time....
3. Because of #2 I feel so far away from God.
4. The position I was looking forward to after graduation has fallen through
5. I don't know where God is leading me now
6. I feel alone and lost so many days
7. Questioning why I am here at NGU
8. Wondering when God is going to provide a man to come alongside me.

Okay so there are 8 things... It's just been a questioning time for me lately. God did give me the spiritual peace before my position fell through, but my fleshly side keeps reminding me of it.

I know God has a plan for me I just hate waiting... Heck I hate waiting in line at Wal-Mart or in a drive through, you know I hate waiting for what is going to happen for my future. As a child I wanted to have those TV moments where I just wanted to wake up and that time is my life be over. I desire for that to happen now. I am in such a funk when it comes to school and life... truthfully I could care less at this point about anything other than my family. I will say that God has made my family more of a priority lately than they have been in my life. I desire to go to every game my litte cousin plays in. Even though I don't know why things happen, I'm still gonna rely on the Lord!!!