UGH

Life as a youth pastor can be a funny thing. (THIS IS MORE OF A RANT/BLOG ABOUT BEING A GIRL THAN MINISTRY) I mean I'm glad my kids care about me and all, but they got me all confused when it came to a friendship that I have... Just because he is MALE! Oh man! The fact that I am a girl and get frustrated when I think about relationships and how I haven't had one in 4 years and such kills me and then they go and throw this junk in the mix is NUTS. I'm not one to just date to date. I want it to be something that both parties have prayed about and know this is what God wants us to do. Throughout the years I have become very independant and I don't even know if I could handle a relationship right now. I guess I shouldn't second guess God! I have asked God just to show me through regular stuff like asking me out and such (since this seems to be a hard thing for guys these days) to show me who he has for me. So who knows where God is leading me in this aspect of my life, but I'm OPEN!